This afternoon I saw a quote on my crazy inspirational fellow blogger friend, Rachel’s, facebook that said: “Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you should set up a life you don’t need to escape from.” For the first time in a while, I’ve felt like God (or whomever/whatever you choose to believe in) was telling me I’m moving in the right direction.
I’ve been super bummed out and anxiety ridden the past couple of months and the past few days have been a little sadder than usual. We spent some much needed time visiting family (some of which we hadn’t seen in 2 years) in South Carolina and Tennessee this past week, and coming home was really difficult for me. I miss them terribly.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a great life – an amazing husband, healthy baby, great friends, a beautiful city and a job that allows me to keep Judah out of daycare, but I don’t have family here in Florida anymore. It breaks my heart that Judah won’t grow up with 2 sets of grandparents and a family that he sees regularly. I’m also constantly under stress (that I don’t handle well) and I’m having a hard time finding time to keep up with the things I love (e.g. Vegan Housewives) and get started on all of the plans I have to get my “dream job” off the ground. And when I do find a few minutes of free time, I tend to choose a bath or just sitting quietly over putting those plans in place. In all honesty, I think I’ve been in a rut.
However, as I cried to John on our trip back home (sometimes I’m a baby), he started throwing out ideas and making plans to attain our non-escape-needing-life. It completely turned my mood around (he’s so good to me). I’ve always been one to drop everything immediately and run away from things that stress me out. Since I was 17, I had never even lived in the same place for more than a year until I met John. I can’t be that girl anymore now that I have a family, but he helped me see that I don’t have to be stagnant and comfortable with life. I can still grow and do the things that make me happy, but I have to plan ahead, set goals and reach them in order to attain the life I want – I can’t just jump into them (or at least that’s what I’m telling myself for now). But I’m on the right track. I can feel it. We’re dreaming, we’re planning, we’re doing. Soon we will have the life in which we don’t need to escape.
What are some of your goals and how have you reached them? Do you use the drop and go method or 5 year plan? I’d love to hear all about them in the comments below!
I’ll be back with some restaurant reviews from our trip as well!